feel blessed ....

Gosh, another week end past....and yet another important decision making had made...
i guess myself consider a too soft heart person... tend to be generous and not sticking to own decision for long. As long as you can tell me how bad a thing will be, i will trust you!
The decision I made is fairly important to my future. Happiness or sadness ?? Well it all depends on what I had chosen. I had sign the agreement and guess I need to stick to it till the opponent breach the contract! Lolz..let’s skip to the other part….had a pleasant and joy weekend with my fellow course mate…well, some of them are not, but we are getting along very well. We gossip non- stop for ……..6 hours!!!!the thai food was great, will definitely visit there again!
I like this kind of life, gossip with friends, hanging out and chill out with ur besties, going shopping, buy beauty products and I guess all gals are the same as me….
I hate to be control,
hate to obey rules,
hate to say sorry when I didn’t do anything wrong,
hate to being accused when I didn’t do it,
hate of being involved in a fight,
hate of being not who I am!!!!

All the hate-ness I had was being happened for ….. a long time on me till I forgot when it started! To avoid all these, I tend to pretend another side of me, another so-called soft side of me….
There all times I wondering why am I doing it, perhaps I am just a peace lover!! I had live on for 24 years, god bless me…. And I doubt I will live till 100 years old…meaning to say that LIFE IS SHORT!!!
Why bother to listen what other ask you to be?
Why bother to get into a fight?
Why bother to look fat?
I was blessed to be still breathing on this moment, there are times I hate myself for having a flat nose, a carrot size leg and a flabby arm….but it all just seems to be nothing when you saw in the newspaper baby with no eyes, nose and hands… please stop hating what you are, coz when you are breathing now, you are being lucky!!!! Cherish every moment in your life, makes no regrets!!!

Xoxo ~p~